Another passing thought

From Dark Knight once again - "Sometimes truth isn't good enough. Sometimes people deserve more - Sometimes people deserve to have their faith rewarded"

The battle within

I had to pen this down before I went to sleep. The thought that I had to write this blog entry gave me the motivation to drive back home from office.

Today was an emotionally draining day at work. I had extreme mood swings at office. I was excited when I reached office. I thought I had something to look forward to. By the time the day ended, all my expectations had once again disappeared into thin air. Every passing day at office is making my life miserable. I feel like a rudderless boat who doesn't know which way to head. I can feel a big vacuum inside me. For the last one year I have been used as a shuttle and been thrown around without any purpose. People who joined the organization way after I joined have been able to figure out their role. But even after over an year, I am not sure what is expected out of me. I have convinced myself to give one last honest shot towards redeeming myself . This might just be the last throw of dice for me. An unfavourable spin will force me to move on in search of some other opportunity, one that will provide me with an even playing field vis-a-vis others.

Lazy weekend

A really lazy weekend comes to an end. The only eventful thing that happened over the weekend was the freak accident that I met with. Siby was driving me to the barber on his bike and as usual we were talking girls - that too twins! So committed was Siby to the discussion that he failed to notice the car stationed infront of him. A truely freak accident while driving at below 20 kph. And soon some concerned people turned up to give their expert comments on how we should have applied brake at the right time. Luckily both of us escaped unhurt, though the bike had to be taken to a dentist.

Other activities for this weekend involved watching a really boring match of cricket between two extremely boring and aged teams, and watching poor Massa's potential win disapper into thin air (or should I say thick smoke).
In short, one of the most boring weekends in a long long time - Yawn

Cycle of mistrust

I was looking for a picture over internet that could capture my current emotional state when I came across the picture shown belowI think I am trapped in one similar cycle in my professional life and need to come out of it at the earliest.
One gyan statement before I round off.. There is nothing that is right or wrong in black and white.. it is as much right or as much wrong as you consider it to be. And whatever you feel make sure to voice it. Not many people do that for the fear of unknown

Random thought

As I watched "Dark Knight" for the second time in one week, one thing clearly got registered in my mind - "Life is not about becoming a hero. Its about knowing whats right and doing it"

The sense of unfullfillment

Life is not as simple as maths is what I have learnt over the past few months. 1 and 1 very rarely add up to be 2. You can do all that is within your control yet find that not everything in your life is the way it ought to be.
My life is fast turning out to be a story of unfulfilled dreams and wishes. A guy going steady in life and earning a decent living shouldn't have too many reasons to be dis-satisfied with life. But life has its own way of playing tricks on you when you expect them the least. All of a sudden I find my life in a mess. Is there anything that I could have done better? May be not. Just that I could have accounted for some unpredictability in my life. All along I thought I knew people around me very well only to find that human beings are so unpredictable that many a times they don't understand themselves, leave alone others. May be thats the reason why on occasions people act in a manner extremely contrary to others expectations. There are way too many variables in life to predict anything. And thats why I say maths is a little easier. In maths you know what the variables are. Life unfortunately doesn't give you that liberty

Badminton after a long time

Finally I got to lay my hands on the badminton racquet once again. Felt good. Over 2 years now since I last played the game. Never knew hitting a toss to the back court could be this difficult. Old age man - I tell you - makes your life miserable. Now that I have resumed playing the game, hope to be a regular. Reminds me of my good old engineering days when I used to play badminton for hours together - even on the night before my 1st semester Physics end-sems. For the sake of record - I flunked the paper